Heaven and Hell

It's more than an attraction. It's a magnetic pull that is very disconcerting to me because it's physically so powerful. How is it possible to feel this way about someone you've just met, hardly know, only had a handful of conversations with.

Yesterday was one of those staggeringly beautiful days when everything glows from some inner light. The light was crystal clear. Warm day with a gentle cool breeze.
One of the most heavenly days I've ever had. Lynne and Allen from Addison Hall at the races. Lynne said I looked great; like I had a ton of positive energy radiating from me and in fact that's exactly what I felt. Everywhere I walked I felt like I had control over everything, absolutely everything.
Mike says Billy has lymphoma. Going to do chemo; he'll be sick all summer.
Caught a 60-1 horse Steve B rode trained by Vito. Completely overlooked by the public in a very weak field.
Today I put in a third shift in a row in Bolton; one of the worst days I've ever had in veterinary medicine; idiocy. Complete idiocy.
So S says to me looking at a snarling dog on the exam table: Why can't you just scrape this dogs teeth here in the exam room; Dr. Barrow does it.?
I gave her a withering look and said because it leaves etch marks all over the enamel that need to be polished and worse; you don't get to really examine the dog's mouth. How are you going to know where the points of infection are, how deep the gingival pockets are, where are the fractures and infections? Dentistry isn't all about just making the teeth look pretty.
It exactly illustrated the point I made at one of the staff meetings: slipshod off the cuff remarks leading to nowhere except atrocious medicine. She said: Don't expect too much from the people of Bolton. I said: you have to train your clients to understand better medicine. Nothing against Mims who is a dear; she is used to working in cow capital where there is absolutely no money. That isn't the situation here at all. People want better health care for their pets. I hope to deliver it and more and not retreat to a level from the 1960s.